Dawnsky · Chronicles

I'm writing from the inn in Gadgetzan. I've been out in that desert they call Tanaris all day, and I suspect that's how I'll be spending the next week.

Last night, I saw Steyr for the first time in a month or two. He didn't look extremely happy. He told me that he felt horrible for never being around, and I told him that I didn't care.
    "But I do. I've been so busy, running around and playing the 'hero' that I disregarded your feelings. And you know, that's not fair," he said. I bit my lower lip. 
     "This isn't going to end with a "I'm not good enough for you," is it?" I asked quietly. He chuckled weakly.
     "I don't feel good enough for anyone, at the moment, but especially not you. You're too kind and caring to deserve this." I closed my eyes.
     "You have to do what you think is best, Steyr," I said. He sighed.
     "I'm never around, Eleanea. And don't think I want this...But I promised my uncle I'd protect, and..." I cut him off, sliding out of his embrace.
     "I know. And I respect that," I said, willing myself not to burst into tears. "This would be so much easier for both of us if it followed with an 'I hate you.'
     "I'll never say that, Eleanea, not in a thousand years. I love you too much." I want to hug him, to kiss him, tell him I'd follow him anywhere. But I couldn't. I merely swallowed my tears and smiled sadly.
    "I love you, too, Steyr. But I understand that you want me to be happy. Though I can't honestly say I'm thrilled, I don't hate you, either."
    "I know. You're not that kind of person," he said softly. He hugged me briefly. "But can you do me one...one favor?'
    "Anything."
    "Don't get back together with Renais," he said, smiling sadly. I laughed slightly.
   "That will never happen," I said. With a last, long, sad look, he took his leave. I wish I had chased after him, telling him how much I loved him, telling him he could be gone for a month or a year, and I'd love him just the same. I wish none of this ever happened. I know how much it hurt him to let me go, and it hurt me just as much.

That was the short version, though. Most of it is a blur. I left without telling my family, but perhaps when Trell's around, she'll tell them. I need time by myself, to re-group and simply cry. But, of course, Steyr and I will remain good friends. But I don't think I'll be able to look at him without feeling my heart swell. I do love him.

(( The real reason? He's leaving for college in the fall, and will probably kill off Steyr. I told him to break-up with Ele if he ever kills of Steyr. But that probably won't help at all. XD ))